Wednesday, September 24, 2008

就这样,不由自主地觉得朋友怎么就越来越少
让我想起某友人说过的话, 类似: "朋友间的相聚, 也不知道什么时候是最后一次."
想要找人聊, 想了很久却不知道要找谁
想要找个听得懂我说什么的人, 更难
头脑闪过几个人的名, 却因为厉害关系, 电话始终没有打出去

2008 年头到现在, 有一种活了很久的感觉
活着, 活着, 都不知道为了什么而活
是我还没有适应? 还是它本来就不寻常?
问了无数次 "怎么办"
兜兜转转还是转回了原点

我已经不清楚我要的是什么了
以后的路, 该怎么走?
真的很担心我会把底线越画越粗
粗到有一天不管我做什么烂事都不可能会越界

7 comments:

kitchi said...

如果要找人聊,我可以听
但是我应该属于那种“听不懂”的
不好意思,没能帮你分忧

我的2008也是好像好久好久,我也一直不断地问自己怎么办
除了坚持以外,我没有办法给自己什么答案

我们之中,
有的在等公司倒,看尽商场险恶
有的在等自己倒,或者哪天被裁
有的有bond,有家回不得,有工辞不得
有的一个人被当成十个人来用
我们这些女人

Anonymous said...

不是嫌弃别人听不懂
只是讲一些别人没有头绪的东西对听的人来说也是负担
别人也可能也没有兴趣知道

我不止等公司倒
我也在等自己倒

Anonymous said...

Maybe this is what they called mid-life crisis?

Have you found your purpose and what you really want to achieve? Have you met the goal that you've set for yourself 1,5,10 years ago?

Not to worry if the listeners could understand you or not as what really matters is do you want to share with them or vice versa? :)

just my 2 cents worth..

Anonymous said...

and you are damn right!
利害关系真的得在说之前衡量一下。。

Anonymous said...

hahaha... mid-life crisis? still young ok. haha. frankly i think myself still very "green" in terms of everything. so my confident level started to shake. not so much as i have no confident at all, i've gradually become timid. sometimes have to force myself to be brave.

Anonymous said...

Guess we are pretty much lost in similar situation.
Compared to those older than our age, or who have been working for long.. we appear "green" in their eyes. However, think about those newbies just entered the society, we are obviously much "experienced" :p I feel better after telling myself this. In addition, it is unlikely to keep our confidence level high without constantly improving ourselves by absorbing the new knowledges etc.
It is just a phase we all are experiencing now.. jia you "0"

Yiqi said...

就这样,不由自主地觉得朋友怎么就越来越少

我偶尔也有这样的想法