Sigh... feeling very down... 就像小孩子吃不到糖那样... I've prepared myself for taking leave on Thursday and Friday, although there were chances that I cannot go, I still hoped and prayed until the last minute that I'd get my application approved. But... it disappointed me. Never mind, I hope for tomorrow, that I can get my leave on Friday approved...
Sometimes I just cannot do anything about this friend. While I was "immersing" myself in the down mood, out of sudden I received this sms:
"这礼拜务必出席。。。 我已招了大伙同时出现。。。 所以放飞机的行为是不被允许的。。。放者格杀勿论。。。"
"你自己讲要去的........ 难道你要放飞机??"
Yeah... I did mention that I might attend this Sunday, if I'm free. Today he had made me no way to say I might not able to go anymore. I can only admit that I really cannot do anything about him, at any time. After I aeroplaned my partner so many times, until today she still cannot do anything about me (perhaps she does not bother at all). My dearest partner... you know the tactic to deal with me now?
I look forward to the gathering... I know I'll be the laughing stock. Anyway, hope that we can have fun in that sauna stadium.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Exhausted
刚过去的周末是一个期待已久的周末。目的达成了，却没有想象中高兴。心中反而多了分罪恶感。这样的一个short trip, 仅此一次而已。
是累的。前所未有的累。累到早上晚起了一个小时。劈头第一分钟想的是要不要去上班。结果还是像赶飞机一样冲出去。早上 office 乱糟糟的景象让我觉得很不舒服。没有什么正事要办，所以就一直做着有的没有的。尝试让自己清醒一点。可是，还真的没有办法让自己潜意识里忘记自己其实很累。
整个早上都在打瞌睡。下午肚子的不适让原本就已经疲惫的我直接瘫痪。提早 20 分钟下班，巴士没有平日的拥挤, 就算是睡着了也没有被乘客的上上下下干扰. 回家的半小时后就直接躺在床上, 睡到不清不楚.
不知道是什么原因把我们搞得累得半死. 最累的应该是那个今天得 travel 来 travel 去 for site inspection 的. 过了今天, 真希望明天可以一切恢复正常.
因为上个周末没有回家, 今早就决定星期五拿假回家偷懒一天, 顺便补一补元气, 好为下一个周末的疯狂行径做准备.
是累的。前所未有的累。累到早上晚起了一个小时。劈头第一分钟想的是要不要去上班。结果还是像赶飞机一样冲出去。早上 office 乱糟糟的景象让我觉得很不舒服。没有什么正事要办，所以就一直做着有的没有的。尝试让自己清醒一点。可是，还真的没有办法让自己潜意识里忘记自己其实很累。
整个早上都在打瞌睡。下午肚子的不适让原本就已经疲惫的我直接瘫痪。提早 20 分钟下班，巴士没有平日的拥挤, 就算是睡着了也没有被乘客的上上下下干扰. 回家的半小时后就直接躺在床上, 睡到不清不楚.
不知道是什么原因把我们搞得累得半死. 最累的应该是那个今天得 travel 来 travel 去 for site inspection 的. 过了今天, 真希望明天可以一切恢复正常.
因为上个周末没有回家, 今早就决定星期五拿假回家偷懒一天, 顺便补一补元气, 好为下一个周末的疯狂行径做准备.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Be nasty, should I?
Sometimes I'm very regretful for not being nasty. Sometimes I am just being too nice to ppl but they're not smart to appreciate.
I've heard many times from others that "auditors deserve to be scolded". When I was still in audit field, I'd say "some clients deserve to be scolded". Now, I must admit "auditors today" deserve to be scolded. Today I nearly picked fight with my company's auditor but later I merely raised my voice over the phone and later stayed calm. One thing I really hate abt my company's auditor, both audit senior and audit manager, is they LOVE to accuse me for saying something that I didn't say or simply, something not factual. This is something I cannot tolerate at all. I'll fight back like anything. There's one lesson here, never appear to be worked up even if you're. I reckon this is a very important skill to pick up which I still couldn't act so. My face and my gesture will show the world what kind of mood I'm having.
Finger pointing is not my style and I hate that. When I'm not pointing finger at anyone, I would expect others not to point finger at me as well when I'm not the one at fault. It's been twice this audit team did this to me and I really jumped on my feet. I'm very regretful for not scanning every amendments I made on the financial statement - the reviewed draft financial statement from one of our dearest big 4 professional audit firm. It's really a shame if a client whacks the financial statement in this way. It shows that the reviewers are not doing their job. It shows that the quality is not there. If I'm nasty enough, I'll email and cc every amendments and queries. But I did not. I went through everything over the phone which shows that I'm tolerate and considerate enough. I've given them big face for not for not putting them in the spot but they don't appreciate the gesture. Instead, they try to find ways to push the blame back to me said I proposed certain amendments. Very good.
Ya, don't bully my memory. I do not have good memory though, I tend to forget this and that. Too bad, when come to my profession, I remember every words I said cos I am very clear about my thinking process. I can even remember every single words I used, the arguments involved and flow of the conversations. I know exactly what I'm persistent about. My attitude towards work is, if there's mistakes, just correct it and get the work done first. It's not the time to see who's the one to blame. If there are things that are unclear, I'll seek clarifications and I will make the conclusion myself. But the so-called professionals like to push the ball to client, whatever it is, just make sure the ball is not at their court. The thing is, if you have clear conscience of what is actually going on, what is there to afraid of? Auditors have so much rights over the reporting structure, but don't abuse the rights. Like the case they hold us back earlier ago, they were obviously buying time for themselves. When things were not done just tell us it's not done and how much time they need to turnaround, don't use that kind of tactics to buy time, at the same time make it appeared as if we didn't do the thing properly. Don't take everyone like an idiot while holding the pride as professional. This is not professional at all.
I'd somehow think of how to revenge and be defensive. I recalled one occassion the audit manager wrote me a blunt email which made me very angry. I drafted my reply and showed it to my boss. She said my reply was very childish. She asked me whether I wanted to behave like them - reply them bluntly and made them angry. I suddenly came to awake and I said no. She brought me a important message - never be a mad chicken when you're agitated. So we sat down and amended the reply. I would never forget I spent half day from angry about email to drafting reply to finally sent out the reply. Ya childish enough, it's a lesson to learn.
I've heard many times from others that "auditors deserve to be scolded". When I was still in audit field, I'd say "some clients deserve to be scolded". Now, I must admit "auditors today" deserve to be scolded. Today I nearly picked fight with my company's auditor but later I merely raised my voice over the phone and later stayed calm. One thing I really hate abt my company's auditor, both audit senior and audit manager, is they LOVE to accuse me for saying something that I didn't say or simply, something not factual. This is something I cannot tolerate at all. I'll fight back like anything. There's one lesson here, never appear to be worked up even if you're. I reckon this is a very important skill to pick up which I still couldn't act so. My face and my gesture will show the world what kind of mood I'm having.
Finger pointing is not my style and I hate that. When I'm not pointing finger at anyone, I would expect others not to point finger at me as well when I'm not the one at fault. It's been twice this audit team did this to me and I really jumped on my feet. I'm very regretful for not scanning every amendments I made on the financial statement - the reviewed draft financial statement from one of our dearest big 4 professional audit firm. It's really a shame if a client whacks the financial statement in this way. It shows that the reviewers are not doing their job. It shows that the quality is not there. If I'm nasty enough, I'll email and cc every amendments and queries. But I did not. I went through everything over the phone which shows that I'm tolerate and considerate enough. I've given them big face for not for not putting them in the spot but they don't appreciate the gesture. Instead, they try to find ways to push the blame back to me said I proposed certain amendments. Very good.
Ya, don't bully my memory. I do not have good memory though, I tend to forget this and that. Too bad, when come to my profession, I remember every words I said cos I am very clear about my thinking process. I can even remember every single words I used, the arguments involved and flow of the conversations. I know exactly what I'm persistent about. My attitude towards work is, if there's mistakes, just correct it and get the work done first. It's not the time to see who's the one to blame. If there are things that are unclear, I'll seek clarifications and I will make the conclusion myself. But the so-called professionals like to push the ball to client, whatever it is, just make sure the ball is not at their court. The thing is, if you have clear conscience of what is actually going on, what is there to afraid of? Auditors have so much rights over the reporting structure, but don't abuse the rights. Like the case they hold us back earlier ago, they were obviously buying time for themselves. When things were not done just tell us it's not done and how much time they need to turnaround, don't use that kind of tactics to buy time, at the same time make it appeared as if we didn't do the thing properly. Don't take everyone like an idiot while holding the pride as professional. This is not professional at all.
I'd somehow think of how to revenge and be defensive. I recalled one occassion the audit manager wrote me a blunt email which made me very angry. I drafted my reply and showed it to my boss. She said my reply was very childish. She asked me whether I wanted to behave like them - reply them bluntly and made them angry. I suddenly came to awake and I said no. She brought me a important message - never be a mad chicken when you're agitated. So we sat down and amended the reply. I would never forget I spent half day from angry about email to drafting reply to finally sent out the reply. Ya childish enough, it's a lesson to learn.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Arghhh ! What a world !
I really feel like venting my frustrations today!
I don't understand why I always ended up staying with all these sickening ppl. I really don't understand why they like to do the laundry on the same day as I do. I only stay 4 nights in a week HELLLOOOOOOO, so I can only do laundry on Tues and Thurs. Can't they choose other day and why specifically on Tues and Thurs when there are 5 other days in a week??? And I do not understand why they have so MANY clothes to wash in just 2 days whereby they'll hang their clothes all over drying rackSSS before I step in the house from work. They know that I'll be doing laundry as I usually soak my clothes before I go out for work. So I interprete their "action" as EXTREMELY UNFRIENDLY. Even if they choose to do laundry on the same day as I do, can't they just leave me a tiny place to hang my clothes ????? Do they need to be this kiasu to do laundry before me and consume all the space before I return from work??? At first I do not really care as I think maybe that's just coincident. After observing them for 2 months over, I am very sure it's not coincident. Another thing is that, they never say hello since the day they moved in. As and when I step in the house, they'll shut their door. I do not even have chance to see their faces properly, let alone knowing who they are.
Last time my ex-housemate whose mood swing asked me to wake up earlier cos she's rushing for work every morning. I woke up at the same time almost everyday, she had no issue with that all along. Out of sudden 2 months later after I moved in, she gave me a black face one the morning and sms me later, asked me to wake up early in future as she's rushing for work every morning? To cooperate the time she usually woke up, I woke up 15 mins to 20 mins earlier, was that not early enough??? By the time I finished using the bathroom she had not waken up okay! I do not mind rushing for work, why not she woke up earlier then? Never see ppl with this cheek to request others to wake up earlier just to suit her timing.
Are they staying in jungle for too long or they simply do not know to spell CONSIDERATE??
I don't understand why I always ended up staying with all these sickening ppl. I really don't understand why they like to do the laundry on the same day as I do. I only stay 4 nights in a week HELLLOOOOOOO, so I can only do laundry on Tues and Thurs. Can't they choose other day and why specifically on Tues and Thurs when there are 5 other days in a week??? And I do not understand why they have so MANY clothes to wash in just 2 days whereby they'll hang their clothes all over drying rackSSS before I step in the house from work. They know that I'll be doing laundry as I usually soak my clothes before I go out for work. So I interprete their "action" as EXTREMELY UNFRIENDLY. Even if they choose to do laundry on the same day as I do, can't they just leave me a tiny place to hang my clothes ????? Do they need to be this kiasu to do laundry before me and consume all the space before I return from work??? At first I do not really care as I think maybe that's just coincident. After observing them for 2 months over, I am very sure it's not coincident. Another thing is that, they never say hello since the day they moved in. As and when I step in the house, they'll shut their door. I do not even have chance to see their faces properly, let alone knowing who they are.
Last time my ex-housemate whose mood swing asked me to wake up earlier cos she's rushing for work every morning. I woke up at the same time almost everyday, she had no issue with that all along. Out of sudden 2 months later after I moved in, she gave me a black face one the morning and sms me later, asked me to wake up early in future as she's rushing for work every morning? To cooperate the time she usually woke up, I woke up 15 mins to 20 mins earlier, was that not early enough??? By the time I finished using the bathroom she had not waken up okay! I do not mind rushing for work, why not she woke up earlier then? Never see ppl with this cheek to request others to wake up earlier just to suit her timing.
Are they staying in jungle for too long or they simply do not know to spell CONSIDERATE??
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