End of the year..

End of the year.... my only hope is all the bad lucks and shitty stuffs end at 11:59:59pm today as well.

Go Go Go GO AWAY !!!!

认知

My last interview with that company was not totally absurb. At least, it has given me some insights, that is, I must prepare myself well in all aspects for the challenges to come. It will be too late if I only start preparing when the challenges have already fallen on me. A very important self-awareness. It has also inspired me what I want to achieve in my career path. 2 weeks ago I might not be able to answer when ppl asked me: "What you want to do next?" "What kind of job you want to look for?" Now, I have a very clear mindset and I can answer you with more than 10 sentences (not just, "I'm not sure" "Well, let's see how... ") if you ask me now. That is also another very important self-awareness.

I must admit there was 1 or 2 days I was quite depressed. It was when I sent out a few job applications but I didn't get any response. Normally I'd get prompt response from these agent but this round, none. I was thinking, was it really a bad time to look for job now? Or the market has turned bad unknowingly? Will I be getting what I'm expecting or will I suffer a pay cut? Yeah... when things turned out to be undesirable or it didn't fall within one's expectation, ppl get panic. A few days later, I've sorted my mind out. At this critical moment, I reckon that I must hang on there, I must 沉得住气. I can't be lowering myself to a job which I've never considered just because of the fixed income. As time goes by, I'm sure I'll be regretful of my reckless decision later. I also notice one thing, since I started working in sg, ppl have been telling me that: "Aiyah... it's just a job... why work so hard? You don't get paid to be working so hard. Try to find some less stressful and stable job where you can go back on dot, yet the same pay." I've been instilled with this mindset, it becomes that earning money is the main objective, not the self advancement. I'd never thought so when I was in EY. Now I know why I felt so lost in the past year was actually due to this wrong recognition. A feeling of "no growth" is unbearable. This is another "product" after soul-searching for 2 days.

Today, ppl asked me if I have set out my resolutions for 2008. Frankly, I don't have the habit of setting any targets or goals for myself when a new year commences. I've never told myself things like how much savings I must have, how many books I want to read in a year, what kind of car I want to own, etc. I just live day by day and my goal is very "ad-hoc". "You never have goals in life one meh?" Yeah... I've never asked for more in life. The coming 2008 I'd want to head a change, I want to set out some resolutions and do an assessment at the end of 2008, as what others do. All the achievements must be measurable. Reason for doing so is very simple - I want to be a better woman than yesterday.

An absurb job interview

I was awaken by this sms at 9:30am. It's an interview invitation. But guess what, it's to be held at 11:30am. HELLOO... that's crazy. I was in JB and I really wonder who would attend this interview at short notice (for those who physically in sg). So I put it off to 2pm but it's still a mad rush cos I'd still need to do a bit of the research of the company's background and all that.

I managed to be there at 2am. I met the interviwer but don't ask me who I'd spoken to cos this interviewer didn't introduce herself. She didn't even tell me her name. Fine. A general start off would be self introduction and a description of my roles and responsibilites with my current job. Subsequently, she asked me if I'm aware of the role and responsibilities of the position that I was applying for. Again, I shouted a big "HELLOOOO" in my heart. I thought it's been clearly stated on the advertisement??? Don't tell me she doubts I've not worked with person at this level in the past?? Then, it's another question that really provoked me. She said to me that her accountants are much more experienced than me, they're also qualified accoutant. She asked me how would I see myself to lead a team like this. Then, in my heart, it shouted: Why not you promote your accountant and you hire an accountant which is cheaper then? Walaooooo.....

Seriously, the finance team consist of only 2 accountants, 1 admin staff and 1 payroll. This is a rather small team whereas my audit team could be in bigger group at times. What puzzle me was she had seen my profile, she knew my background, if she thinks that I'm less experienced than her existing accountant then why invite me for interview at this short notice???? Don't waste each other time lah, madam.

It's the first time I saw ppl invite ppl for interview via sms but not a call. In the sms, they also mentioned that they'd sms the company's address but it was me who took the initiative to ask if the company is located at this so and so building an hour before the interview. (I'd already got the address from the company's website la.... Duh.. ) It's also the first time I saw interviewer didn't even bother to do a basic self introduction. Show some respects to others la, please. Even your company was awarded "Enterprise 50" but so what? It's nothing big to me.

今年圣诞

那天这位同学问我：去年圣诞怎么过？想着想着。。。 “哎呀，想这么久，一定是没人约。” 不可能啊。。。 应该不是一个人的 。。。。 总会有人一起度过这可以是寂寞，也可以是温馨的日子。不知道是多少天后，终于让我想起，去年的圣诞是在YQ家过的。可是照片勒？没有看过照片，难怪那天变得那么容易遗忘。一旦想起，有一些特别的事也从我记忆的柜子被翻了出来。比如说，有两个人偷偷溜了出去，带了一些惊喜回来。

今年圣诞，在我盛情的邀请下，有3个人赏脸愿意和我去马六甲一趟，了我一住 A Famosa 的心愿。哈哈。其实本人真的不知道 A Famosa 离市区十万八千里远。出一个这样的状况，塞车啦，找食物啦，实在是 feel very bad about it.

奇怪的4人组合，大概只有1个人是找不到联想的。翻一翻记忆的橱，慢慢的大家也找到了一些交集。比如说，去年那两个偷跑的人当下一起在马六甲过圣诞；11 年前在四湾岛他们同睡一张床。一开始还会担心，我们这4个人到了马六甲要做什么来消遣，漫漫长路我们又该聊些什么，会不会因为不懂要讲些什么结果就一路静静的。老实说，这些担心还有些多余。可以聊的还挺多的。终归只讲一个“心”子。当然少不了爱情顾问的 consultation session。男人和女人的话题，讲都讲不完。让我了解男人的劣根性，让我们对男人失去信心，让我对因为年龄的增长而将慢慢失去的一些能力感到无奈和悲哀。我，可能在慢慢失去某些能力而不自知。

加分和扣分是几乎每天都做的 assessment，只不过多数人没有把它具体化。我想这次的交流我们都有为彼此加分。谢谢为我加分的朋友，谢谢愿意说出心里话的朋友，也谢谢这几年来一直帮我分析个案的朋友。

不能加入的朋友，敬请期待新年聚餐吧。主办人：Rolling egg. 赶快去问他详情！^_^

Gunung Pulai

上一回去 Gunung Pulai，还没有爬到半山腰就下雨，所以被逼折回。今天。。 hohoho。。。
历经千辛万苦，我终于爬上山顶啦。


凉风习习，还有雾。置身在弥雾中，怎一个爽字了得？

爬完山，我们去了神庙。今天刚好是“不知道是什么”的庆典，全村的人，全古来的人都聚集在这里。因为两个安娣一直在车上讲 (就知道她们想去了)，所以就顺道去凑热闹。结果。。车刚停好，一下车就看到 tyre punctured. 难怪 steering 震到那么厉害。不过呢，暂时没有管那么多，吃饱再说。哈哈。

可怜的弟弟 (being the only guy in the car) 就得换轮胎啦。这换轮胎的动作吸引了大家的围观。其实大家只不过是对车牌有兴趣。几乎每一辆经过的车和人都会转头望一望车牌。今天我的车牌肯定是大红字。哈哈。华人啊，就是改不了赌性。。。有时候去拜拜也不过为了求财。妈妈 beh tahan, 就叫表妹蹲在车牌前当"守护神"，档着不让他们看。哈哈。

我们都是第一次换轮胎的人。没有人有经验。我的 spare tyre 还是第一天开张。还好有姨丈的拔刀相助, 还有路人甲的“指点迷津”，才不至于把 nuts 越锁越紧。

Two words to summarise: 破财。

醉言醉语

- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
accept it or not. pretty + money 是成正比的
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
pretty +time 也是成正比的
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来很多事情都是方程式
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
人生也不过是个加减乘除
Veerla says:
wahhh
Veerla says:
profound sentence !!
Veerla says:
haha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
哇
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来喝多酒会变成墨水
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来人还是难得糊涂好一点
Veerla says:
ya....... 难得糊涂
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
在迷糊的世界 也许会过的好一点
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
难怪那么多人把自己搞醉
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
虽然自己没有很会喝 不过为了昏的那个目的


阿姐，你真的醉了吗？呵呵。
比昨晚好一点，没有那么多typo，讲话比较正常一点。哈。。。。。

- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
ya. chinese. at least no typo.
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
coz typo . han yu ping yin. wont come out hahahaahahahahah
Veerla says:
ohh
Veerla says:
hahahahaha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
华语 还是有它的美丽的
Veerla says:
eh last nite u very gou li leh
Veerla says:
dunno wat u typed
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
hehe
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
coz english
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
keybourd run
Veerla says:
u'd better type chinese
Veerla says:
keyboard run? haha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
today last nite. same 3 can
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
keyborad.....run and jump
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
my hand.....firm hahaha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
不过今晚 为什么 那么 能顶
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
奇怪
Veerla says:
hahahahaa
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
有时 娱乐一下自己 也是 一种 快乐
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
人生 就是这样 自虐 自私 自闭 自怜 自哀 自恋 自闭

Ah Jie, you very cute la..

恐龙周记

<<恐龙周记>>，一本我每隔几年，得空就会拿出来翻一翻的书。

曾几何时，我以为台湾的男生是最有内涵的男生。就因为看了这本书。

谷拉拉写这本书的时候，她还没有结婚；如今，谷拉拉都已结婚6年了。。。时光飞逝啊。

时间过去了，我依然喜欢她的文字。。。

谷拉拉和恐龙是怎样开始的？

有一天，谷拉拉递了张爱的纸条给恐龙，写到：

“恐龙：

你愿意做我的男朋友吗？请不要怕我伤心，只要据实以答就好。

已经偷偷喜欢上你的谷拉拉”

如果你是男生，你会怎么回答呢？

.......................

恐龙回答说：

“谷拉拉：

让我来追你！

恐龙”

纸条虽然不是写给我的，可是我有被感动到。

会这样顾忌女生面子的男生应该绝种了。不愧是恐龙。呵呵。