生命过客

Suddenly have this old song come across my mind. I used to like this song, by 童安格. My world's so grey these days. Hence, what come across my mind is also grey.

The lyrics is very simple. As simple as that.

在拥挤的街头
你在忙碌的追求什么
在孤寂的角落
你知道失去的也多

在拥有的角落
你是否曾经好好珍惜
在失去的时候
是否依然那么在意
一生要失败几回
才知道成功的意义
一生要爱过几回
才了解爱的真谛

Does it make you think of anything?

Movie - Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix

I didn't expect myself to watch Harry Potter this weekend. I'd ended up watching Harry Potter just because I was cheated by the showtimes posted on web this around. Again? Yes, AGAIN! This time was Golden Screen Cinema at Leisure Mall. This was so unfair! This fella could watch ALONE in the cinema on Thursday (what I meant "alone" was he's the only fella watching the movie in the cinema! Can imagine?). When come to my turn, the cinema said it's no longer showing and we had 3 of us! What a world!

Okay, back to Harry Potter. This is the 5th series of movie but the one and only series I've watched so far. I don't used to watch Harry Potter since I know the story quite well. But still, the Order of Phoenix didn't leave me much impression as the book was just too thick. I also read this book 3 or 4 years back, for I really have forgotten the content. Surprisingly, as I watched the movie, I could still remember the story line basically because the movie had successfully included the essense of the story, leaving other details unfolded.

Luna Lovegood is a new character introduced in this series. The girl who played this role didn't really fit the attributes as described in the book. The book introduced Luna Lovegood as: "She had straggly, waist-length, dirty blonde hair, very pale eyebrows and protuberrant eyes that gave her a permanently surprised look.... The girl gave off an aura of distinct dottiness. Perhaps it was the fact that she had stuck her wand behind her left ear for safekeeping, or that she had chosen o wear a necklace of Butterbeer corks, or that she was reading a magazine upside-down." In other words, she's a weirdo. I can't remember if she's reading a magazine upside-down in the movie, nor if she stuck her wand behind her left ear, she did wear a necklace. But I'm not sure if that's Butterbeer corks. She's such a lovely girl (although her eyes looked dull) in my impression. Even better looking than Cho Chang (don't know what's good about her and Harry likes her so much).

My imagination about the Dementors, Sirius Black, Mad-Eye Moody, Tonks and Voldemort have realised. I can imagine next round when I'm going to read the Half Blood Prince, all these characters will come into my mind with lesser imagination. Dementors and Voldemort presented in the movie was really out of my imagination. I never thought Dementors and Voldemort could look like a human. Although Voldemort slowly has the shape (as human) as he gained more power but I never thought he could be looking good anyway. He came without nose only in the movie.

I cannot comment if this movie is great. It's different perception for someone who watch it without having read up the book and someone who have been following since first book. The movie merely presented what I've known in the past and deepen my impression about the book.

But then, I'll still think Harry Potter is entertaining, anyway. Both the book itself, and the movie.

Black Friday

*It’s black Friday. Office blocks the access to blogger. Hence, I typed it in Microsoft Word when I feel like writing something down*

Staring at the screen, mind was blank. Sitting there helplessly with a fast bumping heart, don’t know how to clear the piled up works at my end.

I had this feeling about 2 months ago when I was rushing the DMA – the engagement I most hated during the past 6 months. I don’t just find the manager irritating, but also find the engagement sickening. Maybe because I had the most annoyed assistants for the engagement. Until today, when I see the guy in the office, I still find him loathing. I DESPISE him, although I don’t quite like the other girl too. The fortfolio was transferred to a newly promoted AM, which is the guy (E) I mentioned before. He came and talked to me about the engagement, asking me if I did a study on the derivatives instruments and said I must get a full understanding on that part as he’s going to rely on me for the coming quarterly review and next year audit. HAHAHA… I don’t know if I’ll be around by that time. That’s what I responded to him. Daring eh. Hiak~ Maybe sooner or later the whole world will know I'm going to put down the letter again. *damn*

Yeah, from the bottom of my heart, I very much want to escape from this office. As soon as I settle those things which get hold of me now, I won’t be hesistate putting down the letter again, disregard the fact I’ll be blacklisted. Well, it doesn’t make sense to me anyway as I’m sure I won’t be returning to this place again.


July 13, 2007 – 6:15pm

Shit hole

Just want to mark this down. Today, this hour, I'm still working in this chou office at Tuas. Being fooled around by this chou woman. She's gonna on leave on Friday, leaving us here to wipe her ass.

I don't like ppl who is lousier than me talk big in front of me. Obviously this chou woman is the one. It's really unfair for us doing all the works for her and she's the one chasing at the back.

Really a bad woman.

Pity my assistants... whoever follow me, all suffer. My apology.


Update:
Left this stupid client's place at 2:30am. 乌龟王八蛋。

Meaningless

Have you ever had the feeling that you don't know how to move on? Feel like just sit there and do nothing, let the time passes, 毫无意义的. Feeling so low and so helpless today. Very xian and 辛苦. How and when can I get over it? Sometimes life is just too stressful, until I don't know how to move forward.

The rashes on my leg really upset me. It's only one night, I woke up in the morning I saw the rashes became "active" - they have turned into reddish colour and have spreaded to my knees and thigh. What's wrong with it? I really don't know. Is there anything wrong with my bed sheet? Or the dust in my room which I couldn't see with naked eyes? Always, I don't feel comfortable with the room. I went to see doctor again during lunch time. The doctor also can't tell whether it's caused by allergic to food or some other external factors but merely gave me some cream to apply. Then, he's also kind enough to give me half day off for rest (when I didn't ask for it). But what's the point of getting MC when I can't afford the MC? I'll still need to "produce" file in office. Damn xian.

What's depression? Have I hit depression? I wonder. I'd better 及时行乐. 可以笑就笑，可以睡就睡，可以玩就玩. I never know if I'll become listless and low the next day. I never know which manager will come and haunt me the next day also. I'd rather enjoy first before I suffer.

Damn xian... why am I kena all the shitty files since day 1? Challenge my mentality huh? Please lor... who can go far with all these setbacks?

Dragon fruit tree flowered!

While everybody's crazy about durian.... my dragon fruit tree finally flowered!! It's one and half year wait. But only one fruit... okay... slowly... See? My Ah Mai sms me as she saw it. haha.



This is a giant species from Kahang. How I got this? There's one occassion I went outstation to Kahang and Rompin for audit. Having known that I like dragon fruits very much, the friendly and nice estate manager brought me 10 seedlings, 6 white fruit seedlings and 4 red fruit seedlings (a free lunch as they came at no cost). When come to planting, great strength is required as you'll need to dig a hole as deep as 2.5 meters to bury the hanger (usually hard wood or concrete). Then the 3 or 4 seedlings surround the hanger at 1 meter depth. I must say digging the hole was really tough. (err... I wasn't the one who dig the hole.. hiak... )

Every month, you must feed the dragon fruit plant with fertilisers. Of cos, watering is also essential. Must make sure the plants get enough water. Days continue as long as one and half year and you'll see the flower.... *wink*

Mr.Chiew asked me to call him when the dragon fruit ripe. I'm gonna give him a call these days to thank him.

Besides dragon fruit seedlings, Mr.Chiew also gave me 2 papaya seedlings (err... it's a special species from Indonesia, can't remember the name of the species). See the tree is so big and fruitful now. It's been "producing" fruits every now and then. Hmm... another seedling died cos don't know which clumsy stepped on it when the plant was still young.


This species of papaya tree is short. The fruit is sweet and it doesn't come with the smell. You know papaya come with a smell, which I really don't like it. Is it the smell of enzyme?? I don't know.... I only know it's somehow disgusting. This papaya doesn't have that kind of smell. hehe.

Err.... durian trees also got... but no interest in durian.

In vain

Maybe because of Sunday blue, a sudden low urged to me to watch horror movie for sudden excitements. "Alone" is one which Whymei has been asking me to watch. So just make it tonight. I checked to Cinemaonline and this is what it showed to me:


P/S: The date showed Monday (as it's past 12am) but the outcome is exactly the same as I checked this evening.

It clearly showed that it's in cinema at 9:45pm. Who knows when I reached the cinema, CKM told me this movie's no longer in cinema. 5 of us made a wasted trip down. I couldn't believe I could have read the time wrongly! As I checked the schedule online, I even mentioned to Ninja so I couldn't be wrong.

I hope the cinema could be more professional in future. Even there's no one watching the movie but in any occassion there are ppl buying tickets please do not tell them it's no longer in cinema. Even it's so, please update the schedule accordingly online. Don't tell me there are ppl who will call the cinema to confirm whether the movie's really showing at one time. Silly right?

Anyway, it's just bad luck. Trying to watch Transformers last night but can't get the ticket. Tried to watch the less popular movie but in vain also. Gosh, what's wrong with it?