End of the year..

End of the year.... my only hope is all the bad lucks and shitty stuffs end at 11:59:59pm today as well.

Go Go Go GO AWAY !!!!

认知

My last interview with that company was not totally absurb. At least, it has given me some insights, that is, I must prepare myself well in all aspects for the challenges to come. It will be too late if I only start preparing when the challenges have already fallen on me. A very important self-awareness. It has also inspired me what I want to achieve in my career path. 2 weeks ago I might not be able to answer when ppl asked me: "What you want to do next?" "What kind of job you want to look for?" Now, I have a very clear mindset and I can answer you with more than 10 sentences (not just, "I'm not sure" "Well, let's see how... ") if you ask me now. That is also another very important self-awareness.

I must admit there was 1 or 2 days I was quite depressed. It was when I sent out a few job applications but I didn't get any response. Normally I'd get prompt response from these agent but this round, none. I was thinking, was it really a bad time to look for job now? Or the market has turned bad unknowingly? Will I be getting what I'm expecting or will I suffer a pay cut? Yeah... when things turned out to be undesirable or it didn't fall within one's expectation, ppl get panic. A few days later, I've sorted my mind out. At this critical moment, I reckon that I must hang on there, I must 沉得住气. I can't be lowering myself to a job which I've never considered just because of the fixed income. As time goes by, I'm sure I'll be regretful of my reckless decision later. I also notice one thing, since I started working in sg, ppl have been telling me that: "Aiyah... it's just a job... why work so hard? You don't get paid to be working so hard. Try to find some less stressful and stable job where you can go back on dot, yet the same pay." I've been instilled with this mindset, it becomes that earning money is the main objective, not the self advancement. I'd never thought so when I was in EY. Now I know why I felt so lost in the past year was actually due to this wrong recognition. A feeling of "no growth" is unbearable. This is another "product" after soul-searching for 2 days.

Today, ppl asked me if I have set out my resolutions for 2008. Frankly, I don't have the habit of setting any targets or goals for myself when a new year commences. I've never told myself things like how much savings I must have, how many books I want to read in a year, what kind of car I want to own, etc. I just live day by day and my goal is very "ad-hoc". "You never have goals in life one meh?" Yeah... I've never asked for more in life. The coming 2008 I'd want to head a change, I want to set out some resolutions and do an assessment at the end of 2008, as what others do. All the achievements must be measurable. Reason for doing so is very simple - I want to be a better woman than yesterday.

An absurb job interview

I was awaken by this sms at 9:30am. It's an interview invitation. But guess what, it's to be held at 11:30am. HELLOO... that's crazy. I was in JB and I really wonder who would attend this interview at short notice (for those who physically in sg). So I put it off to 2pm but it's still a mad rush cos I'd still need to do a bit of the research of the company's background and all that.

I managed to be there at 2am. I met the interviwer but don't ask me who I'd spoken to cos this interviewer didn't introduce herself. She didn't even tell me her name. Fine. A general start off would be self introduction and a description of my roles and responsibilites with my current job. Subsequently, she asked me if I'm aware of the role and responsibilities of the position that I was applying for. Again, I shouted a big "HELLOOOO" in my heart. I thought it's been clearly stated on the advertisement??? Don't tell me she doubts I've not worked with person at this level in the past?? Then, it's another question that really provoked me. She said to me that her accountants are much more experienced than me, they're also qualified accoutant. She asked me how would I see myself to lead a team like this. Then, in my heart, it shouted: Why not you promote your accountant and you hire an accountant which is cheaper then? Walaooooo.....

Seriously, the finance team consist of only 2 accountants, 1 admin staff and 1 payroll. This is a rather small team whereas my audit team could be in bigger group at times. What puzzle me was she had seen my profile, she knew my background, if she thinks that I'm less experienced than her existing accountant then why invite me for interview at this short notice???? Don't waste each other time lah, madam.

It's the first time I saw ppl invite ppl for interview via sms but not a call. In the sms, they also mentioned that they'd sms the company's address but it was me who took the initiative to ask if the company is located at this so and so building an hour before the interview. (I'd already got the address from the company's website la.... Duh.. ) It's also the first time I saw interviewer didn't even bother to do a basic self introduction. Show some respects to others la, please. Even your company was awarded "Enterprise 50" but so what? It's nothing big to me.

今年圣诞

那天这位同学问我：去年圣诞怎么过？想着想着。。。 “哎呀，想这么久，一定是没人约。” 不可能啊。。。 应该不是一个人的 。。。。 总会有人一起度过这可以是寂寞，也可以是温馨的日子。不知道是多少天后，终于让我想起，去年的圣诞是在YQ家过的。可是照片勒？没有看过照片，难怪那天变得那么容易遗忘。一旦想起，有一些特别的事也从我记忆的柜子被翻了出来。比如说，有两个人偷偷溜了出去，带了一些惊喜回来。

今年圣诞，在我盛情的邀请下，有3个人赏脸愿意和我去马六甲一趟，了我一住 A Famosa 的心愿。哈哈。其实本人真的不知道 A Famosa 离市区十万八千里远。出一个这样的状况，塞车啦，找食物啦，实在是 feel very bad about it.

奇怪的4人组合，大概只有1个人是找不到联想的。翻一翻记忆的橱，慢慢的大家也找到了一些交集。比如说，去年那两个偷跑的人当下一起在马六甲过圣诞；11 年前在四湾岛他们同睡一张床。一开始还会担心，我们这4个人到了马六甲要做什么来消遣，漫漫长路我们又该聊些什么，会不会因为不懂要讲些什么结果就一路静静的。老实说，这些担心还有些多余。可以聊的还挺多的。终归只讲一个“心”子。当然少不了爱情顾问的 consultation session。男人和女人的话题，讲都讲不完。让我了解男人的劣根性，让我们对男人失去信心，让我对因为年龄的增长而将慢慢失去的一些能力感到无奈和悲哀。我，可能在慢慢失去某些能力而不自知。

加分和扣分是几乎每天都做的 assessment，只不过多数人没有把它具体化。我想这次的交流我们都有为彼此加分。谢谢为我加分的朋友，谢谢愿意说出心里话的朋友，也谢谢这几年来一直帮我分析个案的朋友。

不能加入的朋友，敬请期待新年聚餐吧。主办人：Rolling egg. 赶快去问他详情！^_^

Gunung Pulai

上一回去 Gunung Pulai，还没有爬到半山腰就下雨，所以被逼折回。今天。。 hohoho。。。
历经千辛万苦，我终于爬上山顶啦。


凉风习习，还有雾。置身在弥雾中，怎一个爽字了得？

爬完山，我们去了神庙。今天刚好是“不知道是什么”的庆典，全村的人，全古来的人都聚集在这里。因为两个安娣一直在车上讲 (就知道她们想去了)，所以就顺道去凑热闹。结果。。车刚停好，一下车就看到 tyre punctured. 难怪 steering 震到那么厉害。不过呢，暂时没有管那么多，吃饱再说。哈哈。

可怜的弟弟 (being the only guy in the car) 就得换轮胎啦。这换轮胎的动作吸引了大家的围观。其实大家只不过是对车牌有兴趣。几乎每一辆经过的车和人都会转头望一望车牌。今天我的车牌肯定是大红字。哈哈。华人啊，就是改不了赌性。。。有时候去拜拜也不过为了求财。妈妈 beh tahan, 就叫表妹蹲在车牌前当"守护神"，档着不让他们看。哈哈。

我们都是第一次换轮胎的人。没有人有经验。我的 spare tyre 还是第一天开张。还好有姨丈的拔刀相助, 还有路人甲的“指点迷津”，才不至于把 nuts 越锁越紧。

Two words to summarise: 破财。

醉言醉语

- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
accept it or not. pretty + money 是成正比的
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
pretty +time 也是成正比的
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来很多事情都是方程式
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
人生也不过是个加减乘除
Veerla says:
wahhh
Veerla says:
profound sentence !!
Veerla says:
haha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
哇
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来喝多酒会变成墨水
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
原来人还是难得糊涂好一点
Veerla says:
ya....... 难得糊涂
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
在迷糊的世界 也许会过的好一点
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
难怪那么多人把自己搞醉
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
虽然自己没有很会喝 不过为了昏的那个目的


阿姐，你真的醉了吗？呵呵。
比昨晚好一点，没有那么多typo，讲话比较正常一点。哈。。。。。

- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
ya. chinese. at least no typo.
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
coz typo . han yu ping yin. wont come out hahahaahahahahah
Veerla says:
ohh
Veerla says:
hahahahaha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
华语 还是有它的美丽的
Veerla says:
eh last nite u very gou li leh
Veerla says:
dunno wat u typed
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
hehe
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
coz english
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
keybourd run
Veerla says:
u'd better type chinese
Veerla says:
keyboard run? haha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
today last nite. same 3 can
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
keyborad.....run and jump
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
my hand.....firm hahaha
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
不过今晚 为什么 那么 能顶
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
奇怪
Veerla says:
hahahahaa
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
有时 娱乐一下自己 也是 一种 快乐
- 你的世界我来过 这个世界我来过 says:
人生 就是这样 自虐 自私 自闭 自怜 自哀 自恋 自闭

Ah Jie, you very cute la..

恐龙周记

<<恐龙周记>>，一本我每隔几年，得空就会拿出来翻一翻的书。

曾几何时，我以为台湾的男生是最有内涵的男生。就因为看了这本书。

谷拉拉写这本书的时候，她还没有结婚；如今，谷拉拉都已结婚6年了。。。时光飞逝啊。

时间过去了，我依然喜欢她的文字。。。

谷拉拉和恐龙是怎样开始的？

有一天，谷拉拉递了张爱的纸条给恐龙，写到：

“恐龙：

你愿意做我的男朋友吗？请不要怕我伤心，只要据实以答就好。

已经偷偷喜欢上你的谷拉拉”

如果你是男生，你会怎么回答呢？

.......................

恐龙回答说：

“谷拉拉：

让我来追你！

恐龙”

纸条虽然不是写给我的，可是我有被感动到。

会这样顾忌女生面子的男生应该绝种了。不愧是恐龙。呵呵。

Moody or unhappy?

"Are you moody?"
"Are you alright? Heard someone said you're unhappy.."

Dunno why I've been asked these 2 questions by different ppl recently. Helloo.... Says who I'm unhappy or moody? I'm merely bored.. (I know I'm workaholic.. )

I've been telling ppl that the followings are my daily task list (when my mum is travelling):

1. I need to sweep floor
2. I need to mop floor
3. I need to cook... ("Surely not you can cook??" - Yes.. don't belittle me. *wink*)
4. I need to collect clothes

Ya... it's bored... when everyone is out for work, I'm left alone at home, it's really really bored. Especially when you know your friends are also working, I'm the only one left do-nothing in this world. So sian.... But..... when I'm doing nothing at home, I can sleep till noon time!! Yeah... don't envy me.... Hiak~ Now I can slow down my pace and "harry potter-ing", play badminton, play piano (at times), watch dvd etc... No one will ask me work or rush for deadline. I feel great......

Oh ya... I decided to move back to JB already.... As I said... to get rid as much burden as possible... *shrugs*

十年之约

1996年，年终的学校假期，我们来到这里。那一年的聚会是3年高中生涯齐聚最多人的一次。在这个度假屋前，我们说过十年后再回到这里，看看还有多少人会来。。。


2007年12月15日，十年之约，迟了一年。同一个海边，风景依旧，人，也依旧。只不过人数少了。只有当年的三分之一。。。

摄于“天涯海角”。少了两个人 - 洲大哥和一粒蛋。去了哪？找度假屋去了。

个人蛮喜欢这张照片带出的感觉。象征着朋友间的bond还在；珍惜难得相聚的一刻，所以聊天到天明。可惜娴小姐还是没有把我灌醉。

打道回府前拍的全体照。

大队要看<<投名状>>。多久没有这么一大班人看戏了？很久很久了。久到没办法 recall。

<<投名状>>，我看了两次。第一次看只觉得这部戏很悲，没有流泪；第二次看，泪就不听使唤的流。

<<投名状>>, 难得的好戏。

迷路兵 <<路>>

我们都该 回头看看 来时路
就算起风 偶尔有雾 模糊不了幸福

我们都该 在心里数数 感动的次数
谁陪你疯 谁陪你笑 拍拍肩一起追逐

多少爱错过了才看清楚
多少事无法弥补才认输
多少次以为找到了幸福
却发现一开始 就是个错误

每一段路 都是一种领悟
珍珠再夺目 留不住心头热乎乎
真心的鼓舞 能温暖一生的旅途

每一段路 难免荆棘密布
把坚持牢牢握住 不怕艰难险阻
学会去爱 就不会迷路

I like this song. Simply like it.

Mind game

Game to kill your time.. Have fun!

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Full of lies?

Sad la... What kind of world is this??
你骗我，我骗你。

爱说谎的人改不了说谎的习惯。习惯性说谎吗？

听惯谎言的人早就对狼来了的故事麻木了。懂吗？

Is life this miserable?

Just happened to read this.

This is so sad... Is life really so miserable until there's really no way out but to end the life?

Sigh... I wonder if I ever disappear for 2 months, will anyone bother if I'm still alive?

Life's so unpredictable. Please cherish the ppl around you.

Extention of LWD

Aiyah sian.... very moody today... dunno if that's because I didn't eat anything the whole day (apart 2 slices of breads from Coffee Toast in the morning) or because the need to extend my service (supposedly tomorrow will be my last working day). Sigh... -_-

I've thought about it carefully, I'm actually at risk by extending my last working day. Although it's said to extend for this particular engagement, other manager will also take the advantage and run to me. That's the most hatred thing. I was rather free the weeks before, but come to these few days, everybody seems to do the last minute fire fighting and I was busy like hell. Apart from clearing points with managers, I still need to clear my workstation, shred those unnecessary chicken files and papers, handover engagements and all the office admin works. Aiyah... my clients... What a good timing to turn around outstanding matters in these few days. Tao yan.

I don't wish to extend my last working day. I haunted the resource team to find someone to take over the portfolio but there's just no resources. Gosh, I cannot imagine how they're going to get through the peak period (I feel fortunate that I do not need to face the hassle). My manager has never expected me to leave before the end of the project. After all, it's actually my withdrawal which put her into this state whereby she might act as the AIC herself if there's really no resources. Thus, when she requested me to help out I really cannot bring myself to turn her down... Yeah... maybe I feel sorry for her.

As I was handing over an engagement, I recalled some bad memory.. yeah.. nothing's fair in this world. That's the upmost suay time that I met this si ren stupid bastard manager. When I thought of the unfortunate and unfair treatment I received from this manager, I find myself not just dislike but hate him. I have been thinking if I'm too petty but I must say, to forgive somebody is not easy. It's too hurting. I curse him can never be promoted to partner as he can never be a good boss.

Sigh... I'll extend only a week, at most... that's the limit I can tolerate already.

Outing - Bukit Lambak

Date: 9/12/07 (Sunday)
Meeting point: 7am at Shell petrol station (Along Jln Skudai at Tmn Sri Putri)
No. of ppl: Unlimited

Agenda:
- breakfast at Kluang Station
- climbing bukit lambak
- lunch at Kluang - "botak" curry noodles (signature curry in Kluang)

Please email me or sms me to confirm attendance.

ORB

As Stan came back from Cambodia, he told me he and his travel partners shot some weird photo at Red Piano. Pictures taken at Red Piano came with "white spot". Not just his camera, but applied to all the camera. It reminded me of the photos I took in within this pumpkin compartment at Buddha Park....


P/S: Info about Buddha Park - Read here.

This is the 2nd storey... which I believe it represented hell. It's the only storey with dim light., whereas the other 2 storey were just dark. I merely think it's special so I turned back to take photo.

I noted these "white spots" on my first shoot. I thought it was my finger prints on the lens so I wiped it before I took the second shoot.

Again... after wiping the lens, it didn't make much difference.... "white spots" were clearly seen.

Told Ninja about this, the picture he took also came with these "white spot". What are these? *eerie*

According to Haunted Kent, they are orb.

What is an orb?

- Orbs are believed (by many) to be ghosts in the form of balls of light.

- they travel in groups and are believed to be the human soul or life force of those that once inhabited a physical body here on earth

- they are those spirits that have willingly stayed behind because they feel bound to their previous life

- they tend to become similar to a psychotic human beings

- ghostly orbs are the most photographed anomalies caught on film by ghost hunters and are quite photogenic (when they want to be)

- they can be completely transparent or display themselves in a bright solid form

- it is theorized that ghosts prefer the form of an Orb (ball of light) because it takes less energy thus being the mode of choice among the ghosts

- it seems that ghosts tend to find it easier to take on shapes other than orbs

- it is also believed that they are able to draw on our own energy when needed

I'm not going to copy and paste the whole discussion here. If you're interested, read up Haunted Kent.

Lost and found

Something happened dramatically today!

I tendered once some time in April (but I withdrew the resignation letter). During the last few days of my notice period, I lost my bao bei mechanical pen. It was just right after lunch it's gone no where. I clearly remembered I was still using it before I went to lunch. And this babi manager was sitting beside me.

It was just a mechanical pen but I really searched high and low for it. My neighbour on my right searched our work stations and my neighbour on my left searched the under desk but to no avail. The whole day I got so down and sad cos I had no clue where it could be. Then I was forced to use and get accustom to the mechanical pen supplied by my office.

Today, my last few days with my current firm, I still have some work to clear. As I typist was amending the financial statement, I saw something familiar on this particular typist's seat. I picked it up and I'm pretty sure it's my mechanical pen, although my name tag was removed. Yeah..... I very kiasi, I very scared I'll lose this mechanical pen so I sticked my name on it.

"I think this is my mechanical pen...... "

"Take it lah... I think somebody left it here."

"You know what, I've been looking for it since April. I was very sad that time. I never thought I would have get it back one day."

"Haha.. is it???"

"I've been using it since my primary school u know?? Wah... thank god... I really happy now leh."

"Hahaha... sure or not?? Since primary school?? Wah... you very sentimental eh.. "

Ya... this mechanical pen is really something I cherish because of its "time value". It's been with me for 15 years - the one and only mechanical pen I have since then. It went through my school days from secondary school to college and to university; it's also an essential stationary for my work all these years. The kind of 出生入死 feeling.

Apart from this mechanical pen, this stick eraser is also something I've been keeping for 15 years. Coincidentally, both are Papermate's products.

They are something invaluable and irreplaceable.

The funny and dramatic part of the whole thing is, I lost it when I first tendered last round; I got it back when I tendered second time. Both of which the last few days of my notice period. Aiyah... must be that babi manager took it without my knowledge and misplaced it. Nvm... it's so joyful to have it back to me. Lalalala~

D&D - What a good day

Date: 30 November 2007

Venue: Ritz-Carlton Milllenia

In conjunction with this Annual Dinner and Dance, office closed at 4pm for us to prepare for the night. Sadly to say, this early release might not mean anything to some of us cos there were ppl who went directly from client's place, in working dress.

There was this "best dressed table" contest where the winning teams can walk away with attractive cash prizes:

1st Prize - $2,500 per team

2nd Prize - $1,500 per team

3rd Prize - $1,000 per team

This money comes so easy. But for ppl like us who did not form the table earlier will be sharing with some ppl that we don't know. Thus, the chances of winning the prizes is equivalent to zero. So, forget about the dressing then. Who cares to wear to the theme? Only the organisers of the event - the Recreation Club.

The ball room was nicely decorated, the VJ was great but the food was so-so. I wonder why the 2 newly joined Bangla who sat beside me was having food so different from us. Say for example, we're having small bowl of lotus leaf rice while they're having a big plate of spaghetti. While we're having plain salad with only one prawn and one scallop, theirs were spring roll with the same salad on side. Why huh? They are also staffs, same level as us.

The whole night featured heavy traffic congestion. Let me tell you why.

Ritz-Carlton is actually very near to our office. It will only take us at most 15mins to get there. It took us more than 15 mins to get a cab (JC called till his battery went flat). Traffic started to congest at Robinson road and all the way to Ritz-Carlton. Was it because the Singapore Radio Award 2007 which was held at Suntec on the same night? I don't know. The journey took us about 45 mins. We're 45 mins late for the registration.

Because we all wanted to go back JB so we said to take earlier leave at 10pm. The event was so draggy to the extent that only 3 courses of meal was served by 10pm. So we waited till 10:30pm but our stomach was not filled with food still. Ya, we should have eaten something before we went. I think it's only us who was mumbling hungry during annual dinner. Haa.

Got on the cab and went office to take our laptops and headed straight to Woodlands. On CTE, heavy traffic jam! By time we reached Woodlands checkpoint, it was already 11:45pm.

Taking 170 bus was dreadful but not the worst. We met Alan at the checkpoint. He took MRT and came out later than us can also reach checkpoint at the same time. Gosh. Checkpoint was still crowded with ppl and it's already 12am! As the bus came ppl started to lose control....

番外 - 争先恐后挤巴士

真的是不明白为什么要争先恐后的你挤我，我挤你的上巴士。比较有趣是吗？还是怕巴士跑掉？还是想趁机揩油？为了避免不必要的争执，也不想迟暗亏，我只好把laptop 抱在胸前。我几乎也是被别人推着上车的。尤其到了车门口要跨上车的那一刻最危险。后面的人还在推，还在抢着上车的那种。拜托啦，就只差那几步就可以上车了，紧张什么？？？？巴士又不会跑掉。我跨上车了，还以为安全了，谁知道。。 我的鞋！！！！ 我的鞋掉在地上啦！！ 人不断的上来，又没办法拿。呆站在那里5秒，然后就指着地上说：My shoes.... 望一下要上来的人，大家突然很有默契的全部停下动作，等我捡回我的鞋。回想这一幕虽然有点搞笑，可是挤巴士挤到掉鞋还真的是夸张。Alan 还说这只是小儿科，morning bus 更夸张。天啊。。 我还是去 second link 好了。至少不会有这样的事发生。

Back to the topic. HL wanted to go back Batu Pahat and her friend was waiting her at the Mcdonald along the Jln Skudai. It's on my way home so I sent her there. Reaching Angsana....

JAM AGAIN !!!!

From Tampoi to Perling, such a short distance, we're caught in the jam for an hour! By the time I reached home it was already 1:30am (and HL reached home at 3am). Story didn't end it there.... The whole residential area...

BLACK OUT !!!

Traffic congestion on the road, returned home no current. What a good day!